You write beautifully, as I always know you will, Noha.
The conundrums of sleep or lack thereof, being, doing are very relatable.
I was never one for the acupuncture or religion in general - but you make a very good case for why both are a great way to help find peace & contentedness, as much as you can.
I'm reminded of that 1993 movie My Life with Michael Keaton & Nicole Kidman.
In it, he is faced with the prospect of his life ending early due to an terrible health diagnosis just as he is doing so well in all other aspects of his life.
When conventional medicine keeps telling him what he doesn't want to hear, he turns to a local Chinese doctor who does acupuncture among other treatments.
But it is the things that Michael's character, Bob learns about himself, his future, how to find peace in all of this injustice through his Chinese practitioner, Mr. Ho, that struck me as really important to face the world & reality & what to do with the time he has left.
Those are some of the things I draw from your experience & outlook here. Even though you are struggling, talking about it here is good for the soul & therapeutic too.
Thank you so much, Ryan! I'm glad you found me here, given that I'm so rarely on twitter these days! I haven't seen the movie you're describing, but it sounds magnificent. I think step one is recognizing where you're at, and where you want to be. I'm trying to be more mindful and more conscious in the things I do, and writing is part of that...
It IS hard to achieve. For me, if I do nothing, no mantra, no chant, and aim for the void, the void won't stay empty. It fills up with my worries and fears and disappointments. The mantras are as close to rest as I get, and for me they're restful, but I appreciate what you're saying too.
A wonderful reminder for the importance of dhikr to soothe the racing mind and the parasympathetic nervous system.
You write beautifully, as I always know you will, Noha.
The conundrums of sleep or lack thereof, being, doing are very relatable.
I was never one for the acupuncture or religion in general - but you make a very good case for why both are a great way to help find peace & contentedness, as much as you can.
I'm reminded of that 1993 movie My Life with Michael Keaton & Nicole Kidman.
In it, he is faced with the prospect of his life ending early due to an terrible health diagnosis just as he is doing so well in all other aspects of his life.
When conventional medicine keeps telling him what he doesn't want to hear, he turns to a local Chinese doctor who does acupuncture among other treatments.
But it is the things that Michael's character, Bob learns about himself, his future, how to find peace in all of this injustice through his Chinese practitioner, Mr. Ho, that struck me as really important to face the world & reality & what to do with the time he has left.
Those are some of the things I draw from your experience & outlook here. Even though you are struggling, talking about it here is good for the soul & therapeutic too.
Thank you so much, Ryan! I'm glad you found me here, given that I'm so rarely on twitter these days! I haven't seen the movie you're describing, but it sounds magnificent. I think step one is recognizing where you're at, and where you want to be. I'm trying to be more mindful and more conscious in the things I do, and writing is part of that...
Awwww Kimia,
It IS hard to achieve. For me, if I do nothing, no mantra, no chant, and aim for the void, the void won't stay empty. It fills up with my worries and fears and disappointments. The mantras are as close to rest as I get, and for me they're restful, but I appreciate what you're saying too.